My birthday is in 2 – weeks, and you know what I’m feeling? Not happiness, not sadness, (maybe a little) but resigned and a little dread. Resigned to the fact that I’m one year closer to death, dreading losing my parents, one year closer to wrinkles, one year closer to losing some of my life because of uncontrolled Epilepsy, losing my best friend (who is my Epilepsy dog), to family gradually not caring that I’m still here (more then I feel they already do), and its just ‘bleh’.
Birthdays just suck in general especially when they are on 4th of July. I wish it wouldn’t come, because maybe just maybe, I wouldn’t feel this way.
#DEPRESSING, #BIRTHDAYSSUCK, #WHATELSEISNEW? #BLEHCHRONICLES #NOTDEPRESSED, #IWASTESTED